Building Self Confidence: Getting Comfortable in Front of the Camera…

I always admire the photos of other bloggers. The way they pose and have the perfect smile, perfect stance, the perfect photo. The more I looked at the photos of others, the more I began to dislike taking photos of my own. I would find every imperfection and slowly began to chisel at my self-confidence.

As a child, I never liked photos. I always thought I looked weird. Either my smile was crooked, my eyes weren’t focused, the outfit was horrid and the list goes on and on. Self-confidence is what I struggled with the most. I despised looking at myself in the mirror and I dwas always the largest out of my group of friends. I would avoid going to the mall with them because Ethe stores they liked didn’t have my size.

When I started Curvy Intuition I knew that photos would truly catapult the success of my blog. Especially since one of my passions is plus size fashion and apparel. I love clothes and shoes and I am especially thankful that more brands are now offering plus size clothing.

I am changing the game in 2019. Refocusing on my blog and those things that truly brings me joy. Step 1: Get comfortable in front of the camera. I realize that I am not going to get the perfect shot on the first round, but I am learning to have fun; find my angles, poses that are comfortable, flattering clothes and flexing my creative muscle.

I spent Christmas this year in Atlantic City. We as a family decided to do something new. I had a hotel room to my self and fully intended to take pictures, so I brought my camera to take selfies. I sat in front of the vanity and began taking pictures of ME. Minimal make-up and no glasses. I am learning to fall in love with me and all my flaws. Every person is beautiful and sometimes it takes a few selfies and a positive eye to see that beauty. I spent so many years avoiding mirrors that I forgot to see that I have full lips, almond-shaped eyes, and high cheekbones.

I fully intend to take as many selfies as possible, so please bear with me. This journey of falling in love with me will not be easy. I am going to love the body that I am in. Embrace every bulge and imperfection. Let me be lucid, I don’t like my body in its current state. It’s beautiful, but not healthy. Getting Healthy is Step #2. Taking this journey one step at a time.